The story of Fan-Frickin-Tastic

I started this story in the spring of 2020, when I and my family were under lockdowns. I wrote a few chapters, then I set it aside. It wasn’t until I got into cryptoart and NFTs did it occur to me to publish the stories as an interactive NFT serial project.

The story begins with a trio of college kids, who have been trapped in a bunker, escape back to the surface. The world changed right above their heads, haha, and they’re faced with a mystery and adventure. So am I, and so are my readers, because I’m leaving aspects of the story open for voting! …


Lots of times, I feel like I can’t keep up with my thoughts. I forget the metaphor Buddhists use for a wild mind, but it’s something involving a large and dangerous mammal. They might refer to it as a raging, wild elephant or something, and I totally connect with that.

The point is though, it takes me a really long time to actually deliver the things I make. I’m no expert at what I do-that’s part of the fun for me. But it means that I’m constantly learning, and that’s never fast. …


I was recently invited to a naked yoga class by a friend. I’ll be honest, I don’t love my body, so the prospect of doing naked yoga was daunting.

So of course, I said yes. How could I not when at the simple thought of it, my pulse quickened? It made me feel uncomfortable, and thanks to my philosophy of ‘no fear,’ I had no choice.

I’m not going to lie. It was weird at first being naked in front of my computer (Did I mention it was a video-virtual class? Yes, it was!). I only knew one the other people in the class. …


I recently started making non-fungible tokens, (NFTs) on the Ethereum blockchain. There’s a whole ecosystem for them, and most of the tools / sites that let you interact with them are visual-heavy. That makes sense; Cryptokitties and Punks were some of the first examples of NFTs, and the image is a key aspect to both.

The artist in me loves it! But the author in me has issues. There’s a description field to tokens, and most sites dedicate only a small percentage of the screen to them.

I want to publish NFTs of words, but not images of words (there’s already a project that creates things like ‘word’ in black text in the middle of a white square…), no I want to create an NFT of a story. And why not? people at one time decided to do something crazy and take that oral history and write it down. This isn’t that much of a stretch; stories are put in books, so why not take that digital file and put it into a digital item? …


I’m trying something new by publishing serial short stories as NFTs on the Ethereum blockchain. At the most basic level, this means that these stories will be public and free, forever.

In publishingland, there’s a practice of going ‘permafree,’ which means that the published work is free on retailers, usually Amazon.com. Once it’s free, it’s ‘perma’ free. Well, I just started two projects that will basically always be perma-free. I’m publishing them on my website too, but the point is that I cannot remove these stories from the blockchain. I can destroy the ownership of them, but they’ll still be present on the blockchain. …


I was born in 1981, and recently, I started to carry around a coin: a Morgan Silver Dollar, from 1881.

It was made 100 years before I was born. It’s been held by people I’ve never met, who are long dead. It’s been passed from father to son (possibly), it’s been treasured and protected, and eventually it found its way onto ebay and into my mailbox.

I do have another Morgan Silver Dollar from 1881. I used to collect coins, when I was a kid, and when I sold the collection when I was in my twenties, it was worth almost one thousand dollars. I kept only a few items from that collection: a silver certificate bill, a supposedly ancient coin (might be middle-ages-it’s pretty rough, actually), and the 1881 Morgan. …


Over the course of my life, I’ve apologized for a lot. Some of those apologies were very needed, but some were maybe just expected. A lot of what I apologized for was related to who I was; an erotic artist, or a non-monogamist at heart, or a sensitive poet, or Buddhist, or a person who wasn’t exactly straight or bi.

It’s taken years for me to both accept and share some aspects of myself that weren’t ‘normal’, but now that I’m going public with pretty much all of them, I thought it was time for one more apology.

I hope it’ll be the last one I ever have to make…Before you get all ‘oh you’ll fuck up again, get off it,’ let me describe this apology. It’ll be to myself. I want to make the last apology to myself. …


It during the last couple months I’ve been hustling like crazy. While I usually do take a sort of weekend, I’ve been putting in upwards of 12 to 16 hours a day during the week and a couple hours each day on the weekend. Thinking about why I’m putting forth so much effort and what it’s worth maybe consider what is success to me, and what satisfies me.

During this investigation it occurred to me that I didn’t feel the guy had been successful. That’s bullshit! I was raised literally in a barn in the hills of upstate New York, in a family that barely had enough money to put food on the table, by parents who didn’t complete college, in a town that had a corner store/gas station across from an auto body shop, and the fire department. I went to college, graduated and went back for a Masters, made films that went to dozens and dozens of festivals, moved to Washington DC where I made cutting edge video products, taught the next generation of video artists, paid off my school debt, published seven novels, bought a house, and enjoy two wonderful relationships with two different partners. …


Trashy romance is my second series of novels, and to date I’ve published two books in the series: the first is called Curbside Pickup and the second is called Back-Alley Treasure Trove. These books are atypical romances in that they feature blue-collar main characters, involve progressive views regarding sexuality, and in that they don’t all follow the same trope.

The first book has a pansexual main character who is invited into some non-monogamy, but the main romance is a monogamous one. The second book involves more casual sexuality, but the main characters are monogamous. …


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So, turns out I’ve been an artist this whole time! I’ve been using the name ‘Azurine’ For my art for a few years but it’s been hidden away on a social media platform called Fetlife. With the launch of a site called Rarible, I decided publish my art more widely and use new technology to monetize it.

The new website for this project is Azurine.art and I feel good about the progress I’ve made so far. The way I’m going about publishing my art, is that I’m not only putting it online publicly but I’m also minting it into non-fungible tokens on the Ethereum blockchain. This means that it actually costs money to publish new work. …

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Matto

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